...has got me in trouble. I said too much again. Sorry, I can't help myself. It's my John Mayer obsession taking over today's blog post. You see I'm still feeling bad after having a little "flip out" on my daughter's first day of school. Sometimes I let my anxiety get the best of me, as I did on Wednesday.
It was almost like it was my first day of school. I woke up a 1/2 hour before my alarm went off and began "busting a move". I wanted to have a little extra time to help the kids get ready and to take my annual first day of school pictures. Everything was on track. I even had time to throw a load of laundry in and then...
Well, let's just say that my daughter is a
little lot particular about her hair. She has very thick and very long hair that's not very easy to do. She was indecisive about how she wanted to wear her hair until she opted for it half up and half down (partial pony tail). So I did her hair the way she asked and she wasn't crazy about it. Then she opted for her standard high ponytail.
Ok. Done and Done. She went on her way to eat her breakfast and pack her book bag. During breakfast she said "my hair doesn't look nice - I don't like it". Uh Oh. I was like "oh no, we don't have time to re-do your re-do" and then I proceeded to get irritated because she really wanted it done over. So I yelled at her about being so picky (not my finest moment, I admit). I felt bad so when she came back upstairs - I told her I was so sorry for yelling at her and I didn't want her to be upset on her first day of school. She hugged me and said "that's ok mommy, I understand and I'm not upset". I was happy at the way it turned out, but sad that I made her feel bad over something so silly.
I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. Sometimes my mistakes hurt people, sometimes they hurt me, sometimes they embarrass me, but it's how I recover from them that makes all the difference.
I may not always be proud of my behavior, but I am proud that I'm
not afraid to say I'm sorry.
Be sincere,
We love our kids so much that it's easy to feel bad about things like that. The most important thing is that your proud to say your sorry! Fantastic site I'm glad I found it. I'll be following it from now on.
ReplyDeleteaw, thanks Ross. I appreciate it!
ReplyDeletelove the story, and the fact that you are so honest about the good and the bad. we all have bad moments/bad days. admitting it and saying 'i'm sorry' is not easy, so if you've got that covered, you're way ahead of the game!
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